I AM A BEAUTIFUL MONSTER

@FRANCKKINANGA_

Franck Kinanga, is a Franco-Congolese film photographer & director based in Paris. This series was inspired by the model Ines herself and a text she wrote about body dismorphic disorder.

MENTAL HEALTH CHECK UP: IT’S BEEN A LONG JOURNEY TO FINALLY WRITE THIS DOWN BUT ALSO TO SAY IT OUT LOUD TODAY. I HAVE A BODY DYSMORPHIC DISORDER! SOME OF YOU ALL THINK THAT BECAUSE I SMILE OR TAKE PICTURES OF MY BODY IM DOING GREAT. NOPE I’M NOT !

INES

ALWAYS CHECKING IF YOU GAINED WEIGHT, CHECKING YOUR BODY 100 TIMES A DAY.
I DO NOT TAKE PICS TO PLEASE YOU PEOPLE BUT TO FEEL BETTER! TO IMMORTALIZE THIS MOMENT BECAUSE I AM SCARED TO GO BACK TO WHERE I’VE BEEN. AND THIS SOCIETY IS NOT HELPING ME, ALWAYS COMPARING OUR BODIES, ALWAYS GIVING AN OPINION ON WOMEN’S BODIES!

INES

TODAY IS THE DAY I FINALLY ADMIT THAT I’M HEALING FROM ALL THESE TRAUMAS. LOOK AT ME GIGGLING AT MY STOMACH AND BACK ROLLS ! I WAS TAUGHT I WAS OBESE!!! DON’T LET THE SMILE FOOL YOU! IT’S SO HARD YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HOW! THAT’S A THERAPY AND NO, A SHRINK IS NOT ENOUGH, AND MOST OF ALL I DO NOT SEEK ANY VALIDATION!

INES

I KNOW A LOT OF YOU GUYS WILL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THESE TYPE OF POSTS BUT I DO NOT GIVE A DAMN, ALL OF THIS WOULDN’T HAPPEN TO US IF YOU STAYED IN YOUR LANE ! AND NOT GIVING YOUR OPINION ON SOMETHING THAT IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. YOU CAN SUPPORT, BUT DON’T GIVE AN OPINION. THIS “DUMP” IS NOT EVEN THE HALF OF THE PICTURES I HAVE. MY EXES THOUGHT I WAS TAKING NUDES WHILE THIS IS ACTUAL BDD.

INES

PHOTOGRAPHER: FRANCK KINANGA @FRANCKKINANGA_
MODEL / MAKE UP / STYLIST: INES @AMAWKNR
NAILS: HOUSE OF CREA @HOUSEOFCREA
JEWELRY: ALIZEE QUITMAN @QUALITY_ZEEMAN

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